My friend recently commented on how she loved to see the three generations in our study on Tuesday nights. It’s been a blessing to have an opportunity to do a study with my mom and Victoria in the virtual setting. Last night someone shared a writing that addressed rescuing someone from their God story and purpose.
I would have pulled Esther out. Out of being snatched from her only family. Out of being placed in a position she never asked for. Out of the path of a vicious, power-hungry foe. I would have cheated a people out of the woman God would use to save their very lives.
I would have pulled Jesus off. Off of the cross. Off of the road that led to suffering and pain. Off of the path that would mean nakedness and beatings, nails and thorns. I would have cheated the entire world out of a Savior. Out of salvation. Out of an eternity filled with no more suffering and no more pain.
And oh friend. I want to pull you out. I want to change your path. I want to stop your pain. But right now I know I would be wrong. I would be out of line. I would be cheating you and cheating the world out of so much good. Because God knows. He knows the good this pain will produce. He knows the beauty this hardship will grow. He’s watching over you and keeping you even in the midst of this. He’s promising you that you can trust Him. Even when it all feels like more than you can bear. So instead of trying to pull you out, I’m lifting you up. I’m kneeling before the Father and I’m asking Him to give you strength. To give you hope. I’m asking Him to protect you and to move you when the time is right. I’m asking Him to help you stay prayerful and discerning. I’m asking Him how I can best love you, and be a help to you. I’m believing He’s going to use your life in powerful and beautiful ways. Ways that will leave your heart grateful and humbly thankful for this road you’ve been on. ” Kimberly Henderson Proverbs 31 Ministries
My oldest daughter moved from North Carolina to Virginia with a four year old, a baby, and health concerns that have been physically and emotionally overwhelming. We’ve helped physically, financially, spiritually, and emotionally as much as we can, but there comes a time in which you get in your car and go back to your life story, and she goes back to living hers.
My mom happened to be with us after bringing lunch and showing Grandma the new home. We unpacked a few things, organized boxes for Parish’s sister to use in her big move coming up, and rocked a baby to sleep. I thought in my mind, “The baby is asleep, so that will give Victoria time to rest or work on something without a baby in her arms, and I bet if Spencer would…” My thoughts became words that I spoke out loud as we were pulling away, “I want so much to fix and rescue everything for them…” My mom smiled (the knowing smile of years of doing this “pulling away” with Parish and Anna who moved MANY times in their early years) and said, “You can’t do that Anna. Look at them living their story as a young couple. What they are going through will make them stronger, and they will build their home with God.” Just as she said this, my granddaughter ran to say goodbye in her boots and robe with hoodie up, and the rest of the family stood on their new porch waving goodbye and smiling.
So instead of trying to pull you out, I’m lifting you up. I’m kneeling before the Father and I’m asking Him to give you strength. To give you hope. I’m asking Him to protect you and to move you when the time is right. I’m asking Him to help you stay prayerful and discerning. I’m asking Him how I can best love you, and be a help to you. I’m believing He’s going to use your life in powerful and beautiful ways. Ways that will leave your heart grateful and humbly thankful for this road you’ve been on. ”Kimberly Henderson Proverbs 31 Ministries
I think back on their last 5 years and I believe that they have lived in such a way that their tenacity and strength have shown the world great love and great mercy of the Father. They have witnessed to me in the power of family, love, and God’s faithfulness. Why is it that we don’t recognize the story until we are older, much older? Looking back on my life as a woman in her 50’s, I can now see the story God was shaping in me, us, and ours. I’m still praying for many stories. In fact, I think I have more stories now than when I was younger. Will I believe God for it? Is my desire to control and to rescue evidence of my unbelief that God can heal, move, and provide? Is my impatience a sign of anxiety and depression? Maybe? I’m asking God these things and believing He will add beauty to my story. I love you Jesus. So much.
You may be praying for many “stories” in your life right now. Pray in the Spirit of this post. Pray for God to show you how to lift them and support them, but do not rescue them. God will have His story completed no matter how we respond, but I believe that living with this mindset will not only provide peace for you and your family but also for the one you are praying for.
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